my mind feels like soup
the more I rest, the more I want to rest
Another solo episode of the pod because I am *overwhelmed* by the response to It’s Okay To Be a Mess
It’s Okay to Feel Like a Mess
My first dedicated solo episode of the pod! Some stream of consciousness real realness to start off the “most” wonderful time of the year.
Let’s talk about exhaustion, coziness, Wicked, Real Housewives of Beverly Hills, Single All The Way (my go-to Netflix holiday movie), why it’s hard for me to start a new TV series, and how important my fictional friends are to me.
Let’s talk about how to process things publicly, without giving everyone the nitty gritty details.
Let’s talk about my obsession with watching nasal rinse videos and ear irrigations on TikTok.
Let’s talk about CPTSD.
Let’s talk about my favorite Trader Joe’s snacks and frozen meals, the broccoli cheddar soup at the Union Square Holiday Market (I’m looking at you, Gunther’s), and Janie’s Life-Changing Baked Goods.
Let’s talk about the plans I have for my future wedding even though I am incredibly single.
Essentially — let’s take a spin around the inside of my wild cozy free brain and heart. Seriously, this is a stream-of-conscious episode of there ever was one. At one point - I even sniffed the fake flowers on my table (they smell amazing) and explained why I don’t like being given flowers because I feel like I’m being given something that I know I will let die. I get my fake flowers and Home Goods. You’re welcome.
Also, here are a few things I reference —
The story of how I came out as bisexual, months after leaving an evangelical church, and years after an old therapist told me I wasn’t gay.
I was walking home after dinner with a friend a few weeks ago and walked past an evening church service. I lingered near the steps leading up to the doorway.
